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Friday, February 27, 2009

What I Know For Sure

"I have tried to know absolutely nothing about a great many things, and I have succeeded fairly well."
-Robert Benchley

The other day, as I was driving, I had much on my mind. A relationship I had thought to be solid turned out to be permeable.

And I thought to myself, "How much can we really count on anything these days?"

The U.S. economy continues to worsen. We are seeing things we never expected to see in our lifetimes and we quake inside at what might lie ahead.

I remember the day I learned my Mom had a brain tumor. The day I met my future husband. The day I drew up my first design. The day I learned I was to be a grandmother. The day my position with my former employer became untenable and I informed them of my intent to leave. The day my DH was laid off. The day he was laid off again. And a third time. The day I started my blog.

In none of those instances, did I know what was coming. I got up, made my coffee, and thought it was going to be an ordinary day, rather than a pivot point in my life.

So what do we know? Really?

Not much, it appears.

Oprah has a column at the back of her magazine, titled, "What Do I Know for Sure?"

I found myself earlier this week, en route to what had the potential to be a disturbing meeting, pondering the same question.

What do I know for sure?

I know that I am no longer going to ship S7 sock yarn to Canada (Only option for on line shipping is priority and that costs $24.65 - YIKES!) Sorry...

I know that I love my work.

I know that I am not in charge.

I know that most of what I think I know may well be a mirage or a misconception.

When it all comes right down to it, I don't know a lot.

But I do know this:

I love.

And I am loved.

And that's not a bad place to start from.

I'll figure out the rest as I go along...

S7 yarn tomorrow, including some lovely lace yarns along with all those sock goodies!


Anonymous said...

I almost commented on your Monday's Child post--it was original and creative. I've been reading your blog for awhile but never commented. I love the quotes each day, and the way you really think about things. Your designs are beautiful and I want them all--but mostly I read just to hear what you're thinking about, it always gives me food for thought and a nice, quiet and serene feeling. today was no different. Thank you for putting everything into perspective.

PNWBookGirl said...

I'm not terribly religious but know that usually I'm not given trials or tribulations greater than I can handle. They're growth and learning experiences, whether or not I really may not have thought I needed them.

Peace and light to you for sharing.

Sidenote on shipping - similar experience with a yarn swap with a partner out of the US. Shipping cost a great deal more than the swap limit of $15, so it was an expensive swap. I'll stick to US swaps from now on.

I've drooled over your S7 yarns but have missed the colors I would have bought. I'm sure that there's a message in that. ;^)

Taleah said...

*sigh* yet another saturday I'm not home to snag some of your amazing stash. One of these days I'll be around at the right time!

Kathy said...

It takes a long time to learn all of this. To know what you can control and what you can't, and to be ok with it. Thanks for a thought provoking post, it's strange to look back at a moment when you didn't know it was important at the time.

And postage to Canada? It's just ridiculous.

Elizabeth said...

On the way home from work tonight, I, too, was thinking about permeable relationships and what we can and cannot know. For me at least, there's an ineluctable urge to make sense of it all, to poke at it until it takes a recognizable shape.
That way lies madness, of course, or at least frustration. Thanks for putting the most important things in perspective.

Lost City Denise said...

"permeable relationships"
Very descriptive.

Thought provoking...

Anonymous said...

You are a wise woman! Thank you for sharing your thoughts with us.